Okay, so first off, I want to drop down at my friends feet and paws and grovel. I am so sorry for being neglectful and away for so long, and there isn't any amount of words or excuses or apologies that can make up for it. :(

Niccy, Zita, Caleb, Digger, Gilly, OEDragon, Cecchetti, Kristen, Angel, Avatar, & Katie...you are the first ones that come to mind when I think of my lack of being here. I cannot apologize enough. I need to post so terribly bad, and haven't even come in to say that I wouldn't/couldn't be posting. I feel so horrible! Please forgive me if you can.

There are so many plots that I've left hanging, and so many threads I've left open. And the Isa'fea...I was so proud to become the Alpha of that pack so long ago, and now I've let it fade away to a distant ghost, letting down current pack members and those who might've looked to become one. Gosh! It almost hurts my brain to even think about it. :blink: *shudders* But seriously, I come bearing bad news unfortunately.

I have been selfish. I knew that I wouldn't be able to post for a long time, yet I have not stopped by to even post a quick post saying so. I have clung to my characters like an overprotective mother not wanting to let her child go play on the playground with slightly older kids. But there always comes a time to let go. I am finished lying to myself and leaving strands of false hope for the members of SotW to cling to.

I am sad to say that I am leaving the site. I have thought long and hard about my decision, and decided that it is the best thing for me to do for myself, members here, and as odd as this may sound, the characters. However, any friend of mine on here would probably know what I mean by that. So what happens to my characters?

Let's see we have:
Fathom - The hardest to part with. Being my original creation and my "guinea pig" of the bunch...with so many plots going on that no one but one knows about...and being the Alpha of the Isa'fea...I see it fit to give him to no one else but Avatar. She knows what I want willed of him. However, I know that she is not always that active either, so as a final act of leadership while Lord Fathom is in my possession, I decree that Radon become the Betan of the Isa'fea pack. This declaration permits Radon to have control of the pack while the Alpha is not able or there. She will make rules, regulations, and allow members into the pack. I know that Radon and her player will take it well.
Loki - Is a complicated fellow. I relinquish Loki to his loving mate, Radon, OEDragon. Care for him well, and I am so sorry that I didn't finish what I started. Do with him as you will...even make him change his mind about the obscene things he was planning to do, especially since Triton shall die.
Anubis - I want to relinquish Anubis to Kristen. Anubis and Dezba have/had something beautiful going on, and if you'll take him, please do. Do with him as you wish, he is now yours.
Ciprian - I planned for him to die by Plar's fang...but I have just now been hit with something that I shall now do. I want to give Ciprian away...but am torn between of who to give him to. The two that may play him are either Diggy or Ceccy. I am not sure...please post here to help me decide, but don't be offended it I don't chose you!
Plar - I relinquish to Niccy. She was his creator, and I leave him to her to do with him as she pleases. He was a joy to play, thank you for giving him to me, and I only feel sorrow that I am giving him up.
Nokomis - Is currently MIA, as is her daughter Durga. I think that I shall leave her as MIA, with the possibility of returning there, but unbeknown st to everyone including myself.
Durga - I relinquish to Kristen as well, if she will take her. I love this darling dear so much, and couldn't bear to let her die or give her to anyone else.
Triton - I give Avatar the power to decide what to do with him. Let Hel kill him if she wills, that is the best thing I can see to do.
Palla - Can simply be deleted and have mysteriously 'vanished'. She never really got to play too important of a wolfie.
Orca - I also pawn off to Avatar. She shall do with her as she sees fit, I'm sure cleverly inducing her to fit some mold with Jerrin of course. ^.^
Signature - is already taken care of. He has died prematurely, soon out of the womb, though I had him destined for Alphaship.
Tattoo - should already be taken care of. He can drop off the face of the Earth. He never did anything important, and I don't really want to give him away.
Miska - already taken care of. I have proudly given him to Zita.

I believe that this covers my expanse of dearies here at SotW. Again, I am so sorry for this and the past...but there is nothing I can do for the past.

A glimmer of hope perhaps exists though: I shall not be leaving altogether mind you! Do you think that Jess could just drop it and leave like that? Nay, of course not! I shall be popping in from time to time to check on all of ya'll chaps and my dear wolfy darlings. Also, I have a myspace, feel free to pop by it anytime. If you wish to have that, then email me. My email is: sweet_buttermilk08@yahoo.com. I have MSN messenger that is the same as my yahoo account, and I have an AIM name, dragonszwurld. I have a deviantART account as well.

Let's see...am I forgetting anything? Oh yes, for those of you few concerned with SW...I fear that it shan't be opening anytime soon. I totally understand that if it is to ever return, if you don't want to invest your time in it and return...I don't even know if it will, but there is always that possibility.

Hmm, oh yes, and I shall be graduating in May! :lol: *cheers* Perhaps some day I can make a road trip and visist come of you cool cats ^.^ Wouldn't that be interesting & fun? Lol. There may be something I have forgotten here, and knowing me there is. Simply remind me of it...I shall be checking in here on this topic throughout the next few days ,

If I have left someone to you, then please post here so I know that you've seen it...even if I haven't, post here! It's always nice to talk to you guys.
:crybaby:

I love you all,



~Jess

:crybaby: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :crybaby:

I'll miss you Jess... even if you will pop in every once and a while. RPing with you was fun :wolfrun: But if you must go, I guess I understand...

Radon thanks you as well, she'll take care of the Isa'Fea with everything she's got. Shunt would also like to say bye, he'll be missing his best friend Crimly. I'm not sure what I'll have in store for Loki though, I guess I'll figure something out.

Goodbye friend, Soul of the Wild will never forget one of its loyal members!!! :crybaby:

*sniffles* YOU CAN'T GOOOOOOOO! :crybaby:

I can understand your reasoning though, heck I've even done it a few times...I'll warn you though, SotW is like a black hole, it always keeps pulling you back! Even when you think you're gone for good...a few months down the line, you'll open that link again and BAM! no end in sight :P

It's that feeble hope I cling to...perhaps when you have the time and the drive you will RP with us once more. In the meantime, I'll deal with the occasional visits and keep a stiff upper lip! ^.^ *huggles*

~Digger

Yes, any Admin, will you please make Radon the Betan of the Isa'fea?
Radon, I'll PM you Loki's password so you can start him.
And I've made my choice with Cip...Kisu will you take on Cip? If you have the time...if you won't/can't take him, then I shall pass him on to dear Ceccy...but anyways, yes I've thought about it and Digger you are my first choice for dear Ciprian!

~Jess

heh, I appreciate the offer Fathom, but I'm afraid I wouldn't have time to do Cip justice. Go ahead and give him to Ceccy. ^.^

JESS! :crybaby:
I'll miss you, Jess! I promise to take good care of Miska.

Silven: In other words, she won't let the rest of us eat him or nothin'. So not fair...

(Zita pushes Silven out)
Anyway, what Digger has said is very true. o.O SotW is a black hole. I mean, look at me, I'm Zita the amazing boomerang! :P I was gone for like a year or something, right? O.o

I can totally understand where you're coming from being busy, I had to quit a few things due to school-stress recently. :( Made me very sad, it did.

I'll look forward to hearing from you when you visit! ^_^

Congrats on graduating, that too! XD

Nothing but luck and happiness,
-Zita

we will all miss youuuuu! I didnt know you at all really, because im fairly new, but i just had to say...

I cant see an end for my roleplaying here! You will be REMEMBERREEEEEDDDD!!! HAHAHA!!! *cough* so dont go getting some ideas that none of us people who barely know you dont care. Cause we really do. :) and i wont let Faia kill anyone... yet... :unsure: so yea... i wont let my hopes go down the drain! :toilet: okay i lost my train of thought....

But what I'm TRYING to say, is that congratulations on gratuating (eek my spelling wrieks! ...), and I hope you DO pop in to say hi once in a while, because you will be welcome here! :D so good luck <3

We shall miss ye, Jess. You really were one of those at the very heart of SOTW... :)

You'll be back, I know it! :P

Much love to you and good luck with everything you do. <3 We'll all be eagerly anticipating your return! Don't keep us waiting too long. :D

~Katie x