All right everyone to be honest I think I might just retire being a mod, obviously I'm doing a bad job of it as well provoking anger. Now that Kisu is with us I think she can carry out the duties of accepting and what not. Maybe some of you think I was fair, others assume I was tremendously harsh but this is perhaps the least of my worries of what others assumptions of me.

For one thing, Amanda and I have been working for days trying to build our own site. I have to admit it's looking great and I hope that the lot of you will consider joining it. We're not done yet but we only have to write up about some history, ranks, groups, and fix the glitches on the board. ( Once a few of our friends have the time to do some coding and what not. ) But all in all I hope to see every one of you. Most of which I had not the pleasure of meeting will be greatly missed and I do wish that maybe Brack/Hera and I would meet new people that will fill in that vacant gap.

For a few more days I will continue to be your mod ( once the board is ready ) and then I will perhaps dispatch my duties once and for all.

The last and most important thing is that I've been very stressed out lately and I think I'm having one of those woman meltdowns that we suffer through ( damn emotions ). As said before I try not to talk about myself and when real issues don't get discussed I start having meltdowns. I don't even know myself anymore, I don't even think I was that same Youko who joined SOTW with determination. Have I grown bitter? Perhaps... but even if I have valid reasons for such a past I can't help but wonder what will I become, and wonder if these will become some casual excuses. They are not under any circumstances will be used for my avail and frivoling. I shall admit I have made a lot of misconduct and mistakes that cost me so dearly. If I could go into the past I would but then I wouldn't learn from blunders.

I haven't decided if I'll leave SOTW for good, I have made a lot of friends and I've even been accepted in Amarth. I would feel as though I was abandoning them but I just don't feel the same. As you can see I haven't continued my rp for awhile and since I'm in my meltdown period I can't think straight or feel the same way. For now I think I'll just wait.. watching a bit and hope that lady luck will come my way. Thank you, until then I will debate and provide an answer as always.

Gangrel I personally think you are a wonderful addition to the Mod team and would be very sad to see you go. I understand if you would like to retire for personal reasons (stress, new board, etc.) but I will NOT accept the idea of people on this board being the cause of your retirement. I will take an opportunity to say this here and now, and if I feel it is not read enough here, I will also post it in the 'news' section. Board members, please realize we love you all and want to make this the best RP experience possible, but we will NOT IN ANY WAY SHAPE OR FORM tolerate anger or rudeness towards a Mod, Admin, or even another board member if they are simply reminding you of the rules or giving you tips to improve your RP. I don't care how many years you've been doing it or how many boards you've been to...everyone can improve. If you don't like the constructive criticism, then you certainly don't have to take it (as long as it's not one of the core rules outlined on our board) but that doesn't mean you need to post a derogatory reply to that suggestion. Simply ignore it and move on. Now, if you feel you are being harassed by a member or even a Mod, come to another Mod and let us know, we will try and fix the problem so it woks out for everyone. I've heard of boards being torn apart simply because people didn't want to follow rules when told, or there being too many OOC grudges and fights. I certainly don't want to see that happen on our board, and I know none of you do either.

Gangrel, I hope things get better for you, I can certainly understand rising stress levels...the fact that classes are coming to an end and I have 3 term papers due (each at least ten pages) at the end of the semester are not helping my stress levels much either. If ya need someone to rant to, PM me anytime! :D I will now get down off my soapbox.

~Kisu